I would like to address some things. This isn't a rant or anything, but I feel like it should be addressed. Yes, I love what I do as a dj. Let me give you guys a bit of my entertainment background. I have been on the stage since I was about 6 or 7 years old. In elementary and middle school, I attended performing arts schools. Ever since I was a young child I knew that I would be an entertainer and it would be my way of life. Around age 11, I started becoming really interested in djs, especially seeing my older brother in action as a dj. Then, I knew that my platform of being an entertainer and performer would be as a dj. At age 14, that dream and journey started to become true. 12 years later, I am a working dj. Could I have another job? Sure. Do I want one? Not really, unless it is a job that works around my dj schedule. That is why I have chosen to go the Real Estate salesperson route. While I was in the Air Force, I sacrificed my time and money to build my dj business, starting on E-2 pay (that's one stripe). With my Air force JOB, and my dj CAREER, I often worked 20-hour days to build my dream. I bought speakers (and eventually lighting) so I did not have to depend on the clubs to dj. Basically with what I have, I can go into many clubs with my speakers and lighting and do the job. I can turn a regular empty room into a night club. Some djs say that they don't want to mix money with what they love, and that's fine if it works for them. I feel like why work a job that you hate all the time, when I can build my dream business with something that I love, that takes a little bit of sacrifice. Over the past 6 years since I got my first business license, I have grown a lot as a businessman, a dj, and an entertainer. There was a time as a dj a few years ago that I was not happy, and it was because I gave up control of what I did as a dj. I let other people dictate my moves. I allowed abuse because I was convinced that it was how it was supposed to go down. When I wasn't a happy dj, I was not a happy man. Or it could have been the other way around. Once I decided to take full control over what I did as a dj, man, and entrepreneur, I became happy again and I haven't fallen off since. Does working weddings suck? HECK NO!!! Not once I started taking better care of business. If anything it has expanded my dj reach. When I opened myself up to being a multi-genre dj, it made me appreciate music overall much more than I ever did. In 2008, I never would have imagined that I would make a club go crazy playing "Bohemian Rhapsody". Do I hate requests? Not really. The idea of djing is that we are playing for music lovers as well. A lot of times, they end up requesting something brilliant that I did not think of, and I am creative so instantly I might find some cool way to mix or remix it. Do I do more than just being a dj in my work? Most definitely. I told you guys that I am a product of performing arts schools and programs. I wrote stage plays in my youth. I served as A/V tech. I acted in many of those plays in school. I paid attention to what the producer was doing, the camera persons, the audio technicians, all of that. That's why I love what I do. When I perform as a dj, I am still paying attention to the whole aspect of the entire event. The flow of the event. The sound of the event. The personality of the performers and hosts. All of it. So please folks, don't try to deter me from what I am doing. I'm absolutely in love with it, even if I want to improve certain aspects of it like nightclub relations amongst djs. Yes I am going to school to get a degree in one area and a license in another and both of them have nothing to do with being a dj or entertainer. Can't a guy have something to fall back on? Professional athletes love what they do and they get paid more than I probably would ever see (or I just might see it.lol) and they love what they do. Many of them have college degrees in something they may never do as a job, but they have it there. Many of them do other things outside of their main profession, as long as it does not interfere with their main profession. Why can't I? Once again folks, your love for something may be different than my love for something. When you see me sad and overall miserable, then it is appropriate for you to suggest I do something different. If you see me wanting to improve on something, just know that I am the type that if I don't like something, I work to find solutions instead of just sitting and complaining or giving up.

The Unheard Voice of Black Boys

I wrote this as a spoken word piece about 2 years ago. I performed it a few times in Virginia Beach and Norfolk,VA when I still lived there. Honestly, I stopped doing this piece because I performed it in front in a crowd full of immature adults who made fun of this. But my mission still goes on, and I might just start performing this as a spoken word piece again. So here it goes.



I'M 9 YEARS OLD, IN A WORLD SO COLD. ALONE IN THIS WORLD. MY MOMMA DON'T LOVE ME. MY PIECE OF SHIT DAD, I AIN'T SEEN HIS ASS IN YEARS. AND THESE PEOPLE AT SCHOOL THINK I'M SOME KIND OF YOUNG THUG BECAUSE I CAN'T GET IT DONE THEIR WAY. I'M DIFFERENT FROM THE OTHER KIDS. I CAN'T HANDLE ALL OF MY PROBLEMS, SO I BEG FOR THE ATTENTION AND LOVE THAT I'M NOT GETTING. I'M FILLED WITH SO MUCH FUCKIN RAGE, SO THEY PUT ME ON THIS RITALIN AND SAID I WOULD BE OKAY. MAN, I HATE TAKING THESE FUCKIN PILLS. DAY IN AND DAY OUT, THESE FUCKIN PILLS. AND I KNOW THIS BULLSHIT THEY ARE TEACHING US IN SCHOOL ARE LIES. I USED TO LOVE SCHOOL, BUT MAN, FUCK SCHOOL!!! THE OTHER KIDS THINK I'M CRAZY AND SLOW BECAUSE OF THESE FUCKIN PILLS THAT I HAVE TO TAKE. IT'S LIKE EVERYBODY KNOWS I'M ON IT. THEY TELL US TO STAY AWAY FROM DRUGS, WELL, I GUESS EXCEPT FOR THE ONES THEY MAKE ME TAKE.

I'M 12 YEARS OLD IN A WORLD SO COLD. ALONE IN THIS WORLD. I'M JUST NOW GETTING OUT OF MY SECOND GROUP HOME THAT I BEEN IN FOR THE PAST YEAR AND A HALF. I'VE GOTTEN BIGGER AND I'M NOW AS BIG AS THESE GROWN-UPS. THEY FINALLY STARTED TREATING ME SPECIAL. I GOT MY OWN CLASSROOM. SPECIAL EDUCATION. EVEN THOUGH I HAVE A HIGH IQ, THEY DON'T WANNA DEAL WITH MY SHIT. I'VE ALREADY BEEN TOLD THAT I WON'T MAKE IT PAST 21. THE ONLY FAMILY I GOT IS IN THE STREETS. BECAUSE OF MY SO-CALLED REPUTATION, I GET INTO MORE TROUBLE AT SCHOOL. SINCE WE IN THE HOOD, WE GOT SCHOOL SECURITY TO PROTECT US. THEY PROTECT ME BY ROUTINELY BEATIN MY ASS AND HIMULIATE ME. WHY? BECAUSE I DIDN'T HAVE A FUCKIN HALL PASS!!! NIGGAS IN THE SCHOOL FUCK WITH ME JUST BECAUSE I AM LABELED THE SPECIAL ED KID. I GO TO THIS CLASS AND THEY ARE GIVING ME THIS WORK THAT IS 3 OR 4 YEARS BEHIND ME. THEY THINK I''M SOME KIND OF DUMBASS AND THEY ARE SCARED OF ME. I DON'T KNOW WHAT TO DO. I DON'T KNOW MY PLACE IN THIS WORLD. I JUST WISH I COULD GET OUT OF THIS FUCKED UP WORLD.

I'M 16 YEARS OLD IN A WORLD SO COLD. I'M STILL LABELED AS THAT SPECIAL ED KID AND THEY ARE STILL GIVING ME THIS BULLSHIT WORK AND THEN LAUGH IN MY FACE. SO I FINALLY SAID FUCK IT. I DROPPED OUT. NOW I'M A FULLTIME STUDENT OF THE STREETS. I'M NOT ON THOSE DRUGS THAT THEY PUT ME ON ANYMORE. I PICKED MY OWN SHIT NOW. I SMOKE IT, SNORT IT, DRINK IT, AND SHOOT IT. HELL, I SELL IT WHEN I HAVE TO, BECAUSE I CAN'T GET NO JOB. EVERYBODY ELSE GOT NICE SHIT. I WANT NICE SHIT TOO!!! SO I GOTTA SERVE THESE FIENDS UP TO GET SOME PAPER. MY NIGGAS FROM THE BLOCK IS THE ONLY PEOPLE WHO RESPECT ME. WITH MY BUILT UP RAGE, I'LL WRECK ANY NIGGA THAT DON'T RESPECT ME OR WHO GET IN MY WAY. SOME NIGGAS TRIED TO GET AT ME A WHILE BACK SO I HAD TO SHOOT A NIGGA. DON'T KNOW IF HE LIVED OR NOT. I'M ON THE BLOCK GETTIN MONEY AND SERVIN UP THESE FIENDS. BUT ONE OF THOSE NIGGAS I GOT AT A WHILE BACK JUST GOT AT ME. I'M DOWN FOR GOOD. I WANTED TO CHANGE. FOR YEARS, I BEGGED FOR LOVE. I BEGGED TO BE HEARD. I BEGGED FOR ACCEPTANCE. NOBODY WANTED TO HEAR ME. NOBODY GAVE A FUCK. SO I GAVE IT ALL UP. I GAVE THEM WHAT THEY WANTED.

Special Report - 'Going Natural'

I want yall to see this. I don't promote natural hair just because it's a preference. One of the MAIN reasons are for the health of YOUR hair. Not the hair that you bought. Not to mention, this brings out YOUR NATURAL BEAUTY AND PRIDE!!! This is one trend that I am happy that it is picking up.

You would be surprised at the amount of women who seemingly get offended by me telling them that they should go natural. They get offended by me telling them that I love their NATURAL BEAUTY. A lot of women reply like, "I don't want that nappy shit" or "I'm not tryin to look like no African". But wheather we like it or not, black people we ARE African!!!

Watching this video as well as others, AND since I know what black women do to their hair gets me to wondering. Why??? So, I talk with black women. I try to see what is going on. What is the root of all of this. But I guess it is what ir programmed. Our culture has programmed to think that the long silky hair is what's up. Now don't get me wrong, the long silky stuff looks good too, but at what price? Physically, it is damaging your hair and scalp. Then you have the mental. We are still already slaves enough, why be a slave to hair? Your hair does not look like a white woman's because you aren't white. You have to take pride in your natural beauty. Too many people think that natural hair is ugly because WE ALL have been programmed to think so.

I have also found that many black women who don't go natural just don't know how to take care and manage it. A lot of women think that going natural means just not doing anything to it at all. Yes, ladies you STILL have to manage and take care of it just like you did with with the relaxers, weaves , and wigs. Of course there are unique techniques because your hair is unique. There are many different HEALTHY ways to keep your natural hair looking good.

Also, think about the little girls. Now the knowledge and resources are definitely out there to teach our little girls that they are naturally beautiful. Nothing is wrong with natural hair. In MY opinion, giving a young girl a relaxer(I have heard of them getting them as young as age 3 or 4) is one of the worst things you can do. You are starting a ruining process at a very early age. Do you really want your daughter growing up doubting herself? I mean, there's always gonna be some doubts, but maybe you shouldn't contribute as well.

All in all, natural is the best way to go. It is healthy for your hair and scalp. And it is very beautiful. TRUE BEAUTY. If you think that you can't do it, there are TONS of videos now that tell you that you can. This is something that is a good thing wheather it's a trend or not, it still looks great.

Post Military for Twisted Storeez

Damn. It's been a while since I blogged. Back then I was still in the military and somewhat unhappy with. But I knew that my time was coming up and I would be out. ?Yall think I'm playin, the shit is really like a jail sentence, and I got out early.lol. Well, not really early because I was approaching my 5 year mark and I had already completed an enlistment. Back in July 2009, I foolishly reenlisted out of fear that I would not make it on the outside. That's what everybody puts in your head. They put in your head that the military is the best job out there for you and that you will be happy with the "stability" of a military job.
Well, I got out!!! Not entirely my choice, but in June 2010, I got notice that I would be getting discharged honorably by Aug 31, 2010. I knew it was on some bullshit, but as long as it is honorable, I was totally okay with it. At nearly 5 years, i have proven that I'm not really a failure like they tried to paint me. If I was, I wouldn't have made it past a year.
So now, I have been out officially for 2 months. As a young single man with no kids, I would say that I'm doing OK. I just moved into my new apartment. I'm in a new city that I never lived in, Nashville. I am in college(something that I really couldn't handle when I was in the Air Force). I am rebuilding my DJ brand and it is going ok so far. I was only out here for a week or so when I started getting called to do events.
Money wise I am doing ok. I have several sources of income. I have always been self-sufficient and have been able to make some kind of money. Not to mention, being a vet, you get some decent benefits. I'm now living stress free. I am actually in somewhat better shape although I don't workout. How is that? Because that stupid ass PT that had me doing was just breaking down my body. So with that combined with working a warehouse job for up to 12 hours a day, my body was not in shape like at all. Now that I get PLENTY of rest and I have allowed my knees to heal, I haven't been in this good of shape in some years.
So overall, I would say that I am doing a little better now that I am out. Things are different, but better. A person like myself is not made to be tied to a controlling organization like the military. Don't get me wrong, I am happy for what I did achieve in the military. I don't have a lot of great stories, but I got a few.lol. But it is a VERY true statement that the military isn't for everyone. If it WAS for everyone, then everyone would be in it. With all of my talent and ambition, people were always asking me why was I in the military. And really, I could only tell them I DON'T KNOW.lol. Life on the outside is great and I have no complaints. In a few years, I will be somebodies elementary school teacher and changing lives. If I was in the military, I would've been saying that in 3 years I will be some Staff sergeant still stuck and unhappy with the military. I don't know about yall, but I gotta protect my sanity. I have to do what I want to in MY life, you don't completely get that choice when you are in the military, you do what your superiors tell you to do(including in your personal life). I value my life enough to control it myself, and I am doing just that. I am loving it. Plus, it is all about knowing your resources and entitlements. You don't leave the military assed out, because you DID give them your life, they should give something to you after you get out. But this also goes to ANYBODY who feels like they are stuck in their job. It's not the end of the world if you leave. Know your resources. Know your TALENTS and self-KNOWLEDGE. Create your own path in life. Don't let other people create it for you. Don't be a modern-day slave.

Ju Ju

So on Friday, I was spending time with the Kids at the Pinedale Manor Boys and girls club. I check my Facebook moble, and I checked my inbox and the latest message was titled Julian Pearson is dead. So at first, I thought, "oh this can't be real, who is playing this horrible joke?" Then I saw that it came from Kellian, who is a mutual friend of ours, and my heart dropped like hell. So I left the club and went home to get more info. I saw that the wake and funeral is comming up. So I my mind was running crazy as I am trying to find out what happend. I later found out that she killed herself. A shot to the head. Suicide. I'm like damn. My buddy is gone because of that? I can't even be mad, because I know what it's like to feel like you are ready to end it.

Me and Jullian go back to early 2005. Only 5 years, but it feels like it was much longer. We met at a hospital. I went with Kellian to see another friend, Annistasia who had just came out of a coma. Because Jullian is one of the most plesant people that you would ever meet, of course we hit it off from the start. Of course, I was checkin her out, but as we all know, she was a lesbian. But she was such a warming and good person, I knew that she would be a great friend to have and we still had a lot in common. Then she gets me hooked to a website that she and her friend Jasmine created named UrbanComplex. I just thought that was so awesome. A 17 year old created a site like that that had a worldwide following. And since I was into building webpages and my own website at the time, we always shared HTML tips. Then I would always show up at her job at Schnucks. She would be bagging groceries, but we would sit there at talk for a while. There was a time where we actually went on a date. It was a friendly date. We knew that nothing would ever come of it, but it was still fun and one of my first dates.lol. But we hung out very often after that anyway. Then of course I was leaving STL to go to the Air Force. She was one of the few people who stuck by my side. Every visit I made to STL, it was a top priority to make sure I see her. Even if it was during the school year and She was at ISU, she make the drive to STL while I was visiting just to see me. Small things like calling eac other on our birthdays was so special. Unfoutunately the last time we spoke was on my birthday. She called and left a voicemail and sung happy birthday to me. It was so beautiful. And we talked later that day. Of course many of the times we we hung out was in her favorite place, the U City Loop. I just loved spending time with her. Talking with her. She was sooo intelligent and talented. Never heard anything bad about her, I loved her as did many other people. Someone so talented, intelligent, and beautiful is gone. I know that death has to come to all of us in many different forms. But it hurts so bad to have someone like her to be gone at the age of 22. I just knew that she was gonna do great things in this world. I just with that I can hug my friend one more time, or take a walk one more time. With all of what was in her head, she still remained a good person. I believe in Karma. And Karma works in the after life. So if that is true, we know she is in a good position.

With this happening to one of my close friends, this is a big message to me. I need to keep up better with my friends and loved ones. Even though I love them much, I don't call them as much as I should. So that's what I am gonna do. I am reaching out to these people more often.

Ju Ju, I just want you to know that I love you dearly and you will always be in my heart.. You are still touching lives. Even in only a few words, you have a life story that will inspire and help others, just as you did during youe life.

Love how I see it(part one)

I'm gonna start off by saying that I call it Love How I See It because there is no absolute definite answer to love. If there was, then everybody, or at least most people would find their love with their partner.

First, I say that HONESTY is the key to EVERYTHING. You have to accept honesty for yourself before you can expect it from anybody else. Otherwise, you are gonna think that everybody is lying to you all the time, when in reality, you don't even know what the truth looks like. If you want your partner to put everything on the line, you have to do so to.

Now that you got the honesty thing done, you have to be honest with yourself and GET OVER THE PAST!!! The past is what made you, but it should be what made you better, not bitter. You can not build a future if you are still stuck on the past. How do you expect a person to treat you good and do good for you if you don't even give them a chance because of what people in your past have done? There are too many instances where good people just don't get a chance, because of what the last person has done to you. Or you expect this new person to heal your heart. Nobody can heal your heart but YOU. You have to take that time to yourself to look at everything and heal your own heart.

The two main elements in a path of love is MIND AND HEART. You must use your mind and heart when dealing with love. I see too many people only use one of the elements and always get burned in the end. If you only use your mind, you will think way to hard about situations and your mind will not lead you in the right directions. You will think things that are not true. Love and your only your mind is a bad combination. Love and your heart alone is an even worst combo. Your hear alone will lead you into something blindly. you will let yourself get run over because of this blindness. Your heart will have no sense of direction or protection. SO you effectively need both your mind and heart. Your heart needs your mind so it can be lead in the right direction. Your mind needs your heart so it can be leveled and you can tell whats real. Use these both at all times. Know when to push one more, and pull back one a little bit. But never one completely over the other one.

Last but not least(for this blog entry). GET YOUR MIND RIGHT!!! Maybe this should've been first, but all of this is a process anyway. I don't really know wheather this is at the beginning of the process, along the way, or at the end, but it is the most important part of the process. If your mind is not clear in life and love, you will never be successful. If your mind is not right, you are gonna do everything wrong. The worst part of that is everything you are doing wrong, you are gonna thing that it's right, no matter what is in front of you, what people tell you, or what life show to you.

Like I said, I'm no expert, but I think if more people followed this, we would all be more successful in love. Give it a try you never know what good can come out of this. And be on the lookout for part two!!! Peace Queens and Kings!!!!

Cutting People out of my life!!!???!!!

This is for the people in my personal life. Not business related
So, I have been known to not keep people around for long. Over the years, I have had the rather easy tendacy to stop dealing with a lot of people. Most of the time, it is because of something that someone did to me, or how they treated me, or what they said to me. A lot of those times, they were wrong for what they did. Is this the problem, or is the problem something else?

Now everything that was stated here thus far is true, but did I really need to cut off all of these people? Did I really give everybody a fair chance? This is the question that I ask myself. Now that I think back, YES some of those people truly disserved to be left alone and out of my life. But some others, I might have acted too soon. So since we are all so good at listing the offenses of others, LET ME LIST MY OFFENSES!!!

Probably the number one mistake is that I have the tendecy to not let other people make mistakes. This is wrong of me because I am not allowing these people to be a human.

I have cut ties with friends for having the wrong opinion about me. Instead of taking on the difficult but eventually every helpful task of getting to know that person better and letting them get to know me better, I have just simply cut many of these people off.

I have cut some people really quick for what I saw as trying to change me. This has been the quickest cut.


Those are a few of the main notable examples. But I look back these days and wish that I didn't cut off many of these people. More times than not, I let a minor thing or two ruin some friendsips, some potential relationships.

SO, what I have been working on these days is addressing issues with people, instead of shooting them down, or just running away from the issue. Dealing with it head on may be a difficult thing to do, but it is something that I must learn to do gracefully. I must expect these people to be themselves and accept them as that, just as I want them to do with me. There has even been some that I ignored when they tried to fix our friendship.

So with all of that being said, here is the time for me to do something else I don't do often. THIS IS MY APOLOGY FOR THE ONES THAT I REALLY CARED ABOUT AND THEY REALLY CARED ABOUT ME. And if you did something to me, I forive you. Some of you will read this because of how our relationship was. If if we had a good standing with each other, I am hopeful that we can get it back to how it was. Work things out. BE INDIVIDUALS!!!

-TWISTED STOREEZ