So on Friday, I was spending time with the Kids at the Pinedale Manor Boys and girls club. I check my Facebook moble, and I checked my inbox and the latest message was titled Julian Pearson is dead. So at first, I thought, "oh this can't be real, who is playing this horrible joke?" Then I saw that it came from Kellian, who is a mutual friend of ours, and my heart dropped like hell. So I left the club and went home to get more info. I saw that the wake and funeral is comming up. So I my mind was running crazy as I am trying to find out what happend. I later found out that she killed herself. A shot to the head. Suicide. I'm like damn. My buddy is gone because of that? I can't even be mad, because I know what it's like to feel like you are ready to end it.
Me and Jullian go back to early 2005. Only 5 years, but it feels like it was much longer. We met at a hospital. I went with Kellian to see another friend, Annistasia who had just came out of a coma. Because Jullian is one of the most plesant people that you would ever meet, of course we hit it off from the start. Of course, I was checkin her out, but as we all know, she was a lesbian. But she was such a warming and good person, I knew that she would be a great friend to have and we still had a lot in common. Then she gets me hooked to a website that she and her friend Jasmine created named UrbanComplex. I just thought that was so awesome. A 17 year old created a site like that that had a worldwide following. And since I was into building webpages and my own website at the time, we always shared HTML tips. Then I would always show up at her job at Schnucks. She would be bagging groceries, but we would sit there at talk for a while. There was a time where we actually went on a date. It was a friendly date. We knew that nothing would ever come of it, but it was still fun and one of my first dates.lol. But we hung out very often after that anyway. Then of course I was leaving STL to go to the Air Force. She was one of the few people who stuck by my side. Every visit I made to STL, it was a top priority to make sure I see her. Even if it was during the school year and She was at ISU, she make the drive to STL while I was visiting just to see me. Small things like calling eac other on our birthdays was so special. Unfoutunately the last time we spoke was on my birthday. She called and left a voicemail and sung happy birthday to me. It was so beautiful. And we talked later that day. Of course many of the times we we hung out was in her favorite place, the U City Loop. I just loved spending time with her. Talking with her. She was sooo intelligent and talented. Never heard anything bad about her, I loved her as did many other people. Someone so talented, intelligent, and beautiful is gone. I know that death has to come to all of us in many different forms. But it hurts so bad to have someone like her to be gone at the age of 22. I just knew that she was gonna do great things in this world. I just with that I can hug my friend one more time, or take a walk one more time. With all of what was in her head, she still remained a good person. I believe in Karma. And Karma works in the after life. So if that is true, we know she is in a good position.
With this happening to one of my close friends, this is a big message to me. I need to keep up better with my friends and loved ones. Even though I love them much, I don't call them as much as I should. So that's what I am gonna do. I am reaching out to these people more often.
Ju Ju, I just want you to know that I love you dearly and you will always be in my heart.. You are still touching lives. Even in only a few words, you have a life story that will inspire and help others, just as you did during youe life.
